Holier than thou

I heard through the grapevine a year or two ago that someone said, "Lauren thinks she's better than everyone. She has a holier than thou attitude." At first, I thought, okay, I do judge people on their actions and I don't feel bad about that (self righteous attitude right there!) I don't judge people on their appearance, beliefs, hobbies, sexual orientation (or I try not to), but I will judge someone for harming someone else (whether that be having sex with your friends bf, stealing from someone, seeking revenge on someone else, etc). I mean, don't we all judge?! So I was DETERMINED not to feel guilty for being a little judgmental and self-righteous. Because I actually believed that I have greater virtue than the average person.

Then I was taking one of those silly tumblr question quiz things and a question hit me. "Have you ever cheated?" The answer is yes. Then another question hit. "Have you ever been with a married man?" Answer is yes. I had to stop doing the quiz-thing, because I didn't like how it made me look.

I hate admitting those things above without EXPLAINING OR MAKING EXCUSES for myself, but that's the point!! We see people's actions, but a lot of times we don't see what got them there. We don't see the background story. Doesn't mean those actions aren't bad, but maybe they aren't as bad as they seem. Or who really knows if you wouldn't have done the same exact things when put in my/their/whoever's shoes? We've all done some bad things we're not proud of!!

Moral of the story: I WAS WRONG! It's not okay for me to snub someone else. I'm not saying I'm going to never judge someone again, but I'm gonna try to remember this lesson. No matter how horrible someone else's actions might seem to me: 1) I don't know the whole story, 2) I'm fucking not perfect! I'm not God's one and only chosen child or something....Who am I to snub anyone else?

Thankful.

My mom always said that she wishes she could, "plant her brain into mine so that I would automatically do the right thing." I'm so glad she couldn't do that, haha! Maybe I wouldn't have made a lot of mistakes that I did, but I'm so glad for the experiences I've had and where they've led me! Meeting my husband, meeting such great friends as Alycia and Amanda, and the peace God's given me really wouldn't be possible if God hadn't given me free will!

Sometimes I want to plant my brain into my mothers so that she would be more open minded to "my way of thinking"! HOW SILLY IS THAT?! Very hypocritical of me, I know. It's such a good thing that God gives us our free will to believe what we want. Unfortunately, people still try to force others to believe in what they believe. Thankfully I live in America and the only being I really have to answer to is God.
God reveals himself to you if you look for him. Who am I to tell anyone what their right way is?